is it just me, or is everybody stupid?

so i don't know if this is just that stage in recovery where i'm really angry or if i'm perfectly justified in the things that have been annoying me. or maybe i'm justified but still overreacting a smidgeon. or perhaps there really is nothing wrong with me at all, and everybody sucks. all i know is, this last week, i've been really angry. it's not like all the time ranting and raving and yelling at people angry, it's just the smallest things irritate me so much and i really want to punch someone in the face and kick them while they're down (because my punch is that powerful). i have so many things driving me nuts right now i don't even know where to start!

as some of you may or may not know, i have a stalker. maybe she's not really stalking me, but over 10 years ago she stole my name and now she works in my building. so really, really she's not stalking me? i don't know. but it's more fun to just say 'the stalker' as opposed to 'the girl that stole my name,' mostly because it has less syllables. anyway, she's a total bitchface (someone likened her face to those evil persian masks worn in the movie 300) and she's bitchy to a lot of the females that work upstairs with me (but not me) and she picks and chooses days to be bitchy to the other female downstairs. one day they're best friends, the next, classic frenemies. i don't really have time for this drama you know? but i hate her. i really do. i don't hate many people, but i hate the girl who stole my name because really, your craziness and your identity crisis crap, and your fakeness towards others, and your stupid baby-voice when you're talking to boy-people - that's all stuff that i hate in general. add to that the name stealing, and the mug stealing, and the possible pen stealing, and i just get annoyed seeing her stupid bitchface at my workplace. and it makes it worse with the trying to talk to me because we're not friends you crazy person, you stole my name! plus she thinks she was in a relationship with my brother when they were kids, and they totally didn't because my brother would never date someone who was going by his sister's name! crazies like this are what give women the "psycho" reputation.

next, we have my sister. now please know that i love my niece. i would do absolutely anything for her. she is the cutest baby ever and i have known her since she came out of the womb and i would give my life for her. she is the only person i'd do that for in this world. so throwing her first birthday party is not a big deal at all because i love her so much. BUT having said that, it doesn't mean my sister and brother-in-law should be taking a total backseat and not helping! they have zero input concerning anything and i had to chase them to even add guests to the evite. really? it's your daughter's first birthday!! contribute! sheesh. seriously.

plus someone i thought i was friends with has befriended said sister and brother-in-law and all these months claims never knew it was my sister and brother-in-law. as if. but my crazy sister who doesn't have time to talk to me about her daughter's birthday has the time to call me and ask me what the deal is with me and this dude as if it's any of her business to begin with! you can't live the single life vicariously through me and not be helpful, it doesn't work that way!

and then there's my father, who i didn't talk to about this party because i throw parties at my house all the time. it's not even a thing. and in this case we were just both busy and didn't see each other for a week when all of a sudden this evite thing became my responsibility. i talked to my mom about it and she said it was fine and that she'd help with food and stuff so you know, it's all good right? wrong! according my dad, it was totally wacked to invite him on the evite. but come on, i just hit add contacts from my e-mail and included all my family. i mean, my sis and bro-in-law have been invited to their own daughter's bday! just take it in stride and hit yes! but no, he has to write in the comments that i'm dumb. me specifically. in my evite. where everyone can see. like, you know what? i don't want to invite you anymore!! stupid.

and then my bro's gf wanted to get a used car, which i said i'd help her with if i could. my smart guy dad convinced her to buy a brand new car. like hello! she has no money and terrible credit!! mcfly! so i do what i can to help her apply for financing (rejected). she uses her dad's name but he is rejected b/c with their new business, it's too high risk. and it's not a good economic time apparently so the banks don't care if you have a great credit history! all they know is that on paper it's high risk! so i tell her to just lease to own and my company will help her out. my buddy builds her 3 diff lease options and tries to explain benefits but she decides they can just buy the car straight up. but really, why would you just go and incur more debt?? so she has to talk to more people then she goes back and decides to lease. it's just going in circles. somewhere halfway through i withdrew myself as the middleman because it was so frustrating. but now everyone i work with know that my brother is dating an idiot. so frustrating!

phew that was a brainful.. so the thing is, at the end of the day, these are the things that have been bugging me and i just want to go home and make myself a drink and oh.. i can't. i can't drink!! argh!! oh, i guess i should throw in that i've been getting stomachaches on and off lately and i don't know if it's drink-related or not. i've been sober for almost 60 days, but who knows, maybe i have perma-damage. and that would suck.

but you know, on the whole, my life doesn't suck. :)