the complete opposite

i did something weird today. weird for a sunday in town, that is. i woke up early, i got out of my pyjamas, and i left my house. and then, i didn't try to come back right away. i stayed out!! crazy right?

i headed down to http://www.followmefoodie.com/ and nicole marie events' Vancouver's 1st Cupcake Challenge. it was so cool! as soon as i got there, i knew it was something special because the crowd was intense. i made my way in and sampled one of the last of Cake Tease's lemon something or another cupcakes. it was yummy! then i had one of Indulgence's chocolate something or another and it was okay. very thick and rich. i like my cupcakes light and fluffy. which was why when i hit Bon Gateau right after and sampled their chocolate, i felt like i was in cupcake heaven. i also had one of Frosting's delicious Love Potion cupcakes and Big City's vanilla celebration. i tried a couple of other things too but i can't remember it all now. i was just reaching in and grabbing what i could in that crazy crowd lol. after getting my fix, i volunteered and helped out because that's what friends do and i like helping. helping is rewarding. by staying, i was rewarded with one of Bon Gateau's Mango cupcakes. omg. i don't even like mango anything and i LOVED this cupcake. it was all light and fluffy and tasty and delicious. YUM!!

then as i left, i walked toward the train and instead of getting on it, i waited for my friend m to reply to me and (finally) he did! so i met up with him and his girl and we walked. we walked down to the seawall and we walked out to english bay (and paused for a "drink" - i had a non-alc OJ) and we walked through the remnants of car-free-fest on denman and we walked up robson and we walked to the city ctr train and that was the end of our walk but damn that was a lot of walking. but the fantastic part was just hanging out and catching up with my friend! i feel a little bad that i didn't get to know his girl as well as i could have, but we just had so much to talk about. that's what happens when you hide from people. and when you choose pj's over going out. lol.

but today i was outside all day and i enjoyed it. i socialized with several people and i didn't run away. i also didn't freak. big day for me. haha! i think that it's not that i'm scared of people, i just don't want to be around that many of them. but when i am, i can do it. as long as there are people i like around, i'll always be okay. so maybe - MAYBE - i will get out more. we'll see...

i heart the duff

i was starting to think that i'm addicted to bad movies, but i'm realizing that i'm not. because when a movie sucks, a lot of times i can say it totally sucks. i think what i'm addicted to is people with a lack of talent. people like hilary duff. i'm a huge fan of the duff. i have seen everything she's been in. well, almost everything. after forcing myself to watch war, inc because of the cusack and the duff, i realized that sometimes i have to just say no. because i can't get those couple hours back. and man, war, inc was not good. it's terribly disappointing because i love these people. hilary duff makes me happy. i wish she would come out with a new album of awesome and catchy pop songs. i wish she would do another movie with haylie duff and do the entire soundtrack instead of just a remix of a kickass 80s tune. i want to see her make out with more cute boys who only ever seem to make one movie. i really enjoy her, even when she's in sucky movies like according to greta or beauty and the briefcase.
and cusack.. i love this man. serendipity, seen it over and over and over again. say anything - wonderful. war, inc? yuck.
but do i stop? no. i imdb these people and look up all their sucky films that never made it big and i sit through them because.. i don't know why. i just do. and even when i sit through a sucky one, i still look up the next one. i have problems. and on top of that, my mamajama just asked me if i sit in front of the tv all day, will i go crazy and lose my mind? i told her no. because of course that's what i'm going to say. but if i ever go crazy and/or lose my mind, then we will all know it's because i spend these random days doing absolutely nothing but watching tv shows and movies.
today i have watched (thanks a lot megs) whip it, cloudy with a chance of meatballs, astro boy, where the wild things are, the last 4 episodes of 24 season 4 (omg Jack Bauer is "dead" - how is he supposed to come back??), and now i'm watching according to greta.
maybe i've already lost my mind..

how do i feel this good sober?

i just got back from vegas. i spent all this time agonizing about how i was going to get through this 4-day weekend sober. i haven't been sober in vegas since i was a teenager. and between then and now, there were a lot of trips to vegas. trips i barely remember! but i know they were fun. i often think that sober holly isn't very fun. i mean, i sit around a lot in my pyjamas and watching so much tv that i believe jack bauer is real. i have little desire to go out. maybe it's this city. everything is expensive and you get all dressed up and go out and then it's just disappointing. the people are pretentious and shallow. and sober, i just don't feel like trying. but vegas, you can't go to vegas and be a bum. esp if you're there for a stag(ette). so i went to vegas and i wanted to drink. i wanted to drink jager and i wanted to drink goose and i wanted to drink margaritas in the sunshine. i have to say, this was probably one of the worst times in the last year and a half.
to compensate, i drank a lot.. of energy drinks. because without the kick, i couldn't have kept up. i would have wanted to sleep. a lot. so i had red bull. i had rock star. i had monster. i had coffee. and i was cracked out. but when you're like, super awake and ready to rock, the alcohol cravings die. so i guess it's a matter of the lesser of 2 evils. plus, it's been easier to wean off the intense caffiene that it was to quit drinking.
since i've been back, i've had only coffee. i had 2 yesterday but only 1 today. of course, i've also been falling asleep A LOT on my couch. but dude, who comes back from vegas and doesn't need sleep? esp since i jumped back into the work thing.
man am i tired.
anyway, i made it through the weekend. i partied hard and did it all in high heels and i fought my cravings and i made it home sober. that feels pretty damn good. and i think for the most part, i was still pretty damn fun! i say for the most part because i had a turning point where i was not fun. i was good ol' angry holly. which reminded me of drunk angry holly. which brought me back to being really happy about being sober. lol. but that was just a glitch. this was def in the top 3 in terms of trips to vegas!! 4 days, 3 nights, 1 stag, 1 wedding, lots of caffiene, and late night eating in the company of some of my favorite people! good freaking times.
btw. congrats to my beautiful friend S and her man! i'm so happy and honored to have been even a small part of such a special day!
ok i'm going back to sleep now. because that's all i've done since i've been home. work, eat, poop, sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up, sleep. lol.