Sunday, August 14, 2011

I'm not here unless you text me

Talking on the phone and I are not friends. We used to be. There was a time back when I was a teenager when I could and would talk on the phone for hours. And hours. And hours. I don't even know what we talked about. I can't remember to whom I did all this talking. All I know is, I couldn't live without a phone on my ear.
Fast forward and I stopped talking on the phone as years of drinking and partying took precedent. Then I didn't have time to talk on the phone as all I had time for was partying! And studying. And sometimes working. Regardless, I was just way too busy to chat about nothing, and texting was good for "on the way" and "i'm outside."
In the meanwhile, I also advanced from my big grey pager to my less big purple pager and then my little black pager, followed by a couple of huge cell phones, a couple of smaller cell phones, and now I'm onto my 4th Blackberry (fried phones, dropped phones, water damage. No fault of RIM's). I'm so in love with texting, BBM, and e-mailing that it's my main form of communication. When the phone rings with a call, I look at it and evaluate. Mom's ringer is the Imperial March and I'll pick up. Unknown numbers, don't pick up. Someone I know, depends what I'm doing. And when it's not someone I'm related to or one of my best friends, I usually say "Dammit!" right before I hit the green button and say "Hello."
I don't even know when I became this person. My friend that I've been talking to on the phone lately comments on how comfortable I sound. He thinks if he keeps calling and making me talk to him then I'll ease back into phone talking. I don't know yet if he's right. I am undecided as to how I feel about finding out.
Communicating is so prevalent in my life and yet the only time I really want to talk to anyone is if they're in my presence. Even then sometimes I am not in the mood. There are people that I talk a lot around, and people that I don't talk at all in front of. With most people I don' t know well I do not speak much. Maybe that's why when I am comfortable I end up talking so much. I don't know what my problem is, but if you have ideas, please do not call me to talk about it. BBM 4ever.